Wednesday, January 06, 2010

On Subbing...again.

I subbed for half day yesterday at a local middle school. The last period was a class of 16 boys. Instant headache. I'm sure they are all very smart, talented, and respectful young men. They just didn't show me that part of themselves.

Two different students on two separate occasions came up to me and literally thanked me for "being a sub." It was funny, but I held back my laughter.

I want to buy this book:


...by David Roche, microcosmpublishing.com. I browsed through it at a craft store in Columbus, and it looked humorous.

It's been hard to find subbing jobs because there are so many people in the system. When a job is posted, it's picked up in seconds. It's dog-eat-dog for subs around here! I can't wait to move.

In other news, Daisy is getting bigger everyday. She is still chewing and eating everything she finds, resulting in the cleanest our apartment has ever looked. I can't even put my purse on the floor. I'm very happy to have her, though. She's a stress-reliever; there's nothing like curling up on the couch and Daisy climbing on top of me.

I'll be turning 25 in ten days. 25, and I still don't know what I want to do with my life. I'm trusting that the powers-that-be have something good in store for me. Maybe it's something that has nothing to do with education. Who knows? All I know is that I need something more. I want to feel a connection to my work and the people with whom I work. Right now, I don't feel that.

I shouldn't complain. Many teachers in the area will be handed pink slips at the end of the year. Ones who have families and house/car payments. I don't envy them, and I thank God that I'm not worried about if I'll have a job at the end of the year or not.

Which brings me to my New Years resolution (inspired by Brie): gratitude. I need to practice gratitude every day. I need to write the word in a place where I can see it every morning. Because as much as I get down about not being where I saw myself at 25, there are still so many beautiful things and people in my life.